“That night I decided to cut my wrist!” – A YPG story

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slide1PRESS RELEASE – My suffering started when I was abandoned by my father. He left the house when I was a child and he never came back.

Because of that misery, poverty started to surround my life, bills started to pile up and my mother couldn’t pay it and I was left alone.

One day I woke and I saw a little boy sitting on my bed. He looked cool and I took him as my friend. I used to see him every day, in the kitchen, in the yard, in the living room and in the bathroom. I was just six years old and I thought it was ok to have a friend, but I never knew it wasn’t ok to have an imaginary friend.

I tried to show him to my mother but she couldn’t see him, just me. He used to tell me to steal, to be disobedient to my mother and do all kinds of wrong things. My behaviour changed but my mother thought it was just children’s behaviour.

When I was 15 years old, I learned how to drink; my friends at school introduced me to beers and rum. I was a good student at school and I got good grades but I used to drink and get drunk. I was trying to be a big woman. This addiction led me to fight at school. I was always in trouble with my friends.

At home, whatever my mother told me to do I used to do the opposite. I was always disobedient. I use to go to parties and try to enjoy life. There, I was always smiling but when I reach home I was feeling empty and sad. I was faking to be happy. My mother used to give me curfew, so when I wanted to go to parties I lied to her, saying I was going to my friend’s house. In this way I could go to the parties without being worried about the time to go back home.

One day I tried to run away from home but my mother found me and beat me. I used to give my mother a lot of trouble. I was that kind of daughter that made their mother go crazy sometimes because of my bad behaviour.

As I got older, all of a sudden I started to feel sick. The feeling was so unbearable that I thought I could die. Once I started having these thoughts, I put in my mind that I should enjoy life to the fullest. I started to go to other Caribbean islands, trying to enjoy the carnival and forget my problems. When my friends used to invite me to go places, I used to go with them, and I used to say to myself: “As I will die, I will live my life to the fullest!”

I was abused when I was younger. Those were the most terrible days of my life. He use to buy snacks to try to keep me quiet. I was fed up of that situation, and because of that, I started to have rage against men and even against my father. I started to disrespect him. I wanted to die; I was always having suicidal thoughts.

At the age of 17, the suicidal thoughts reached to the point where I started to cut my wrist. I used to take blades and knifes to mutilate myself. I climbed the cliff of a hospital in Dennery and I jumped. I ended up having scratches and bruises all over my body. When I woke up I was in the hospital.

In form 3, I started to get sick and no doctor could find the reason why it was happening; no medication was helping me and nobody understood me. To them, I was mad. But they never knew I was having spiritual attacks.

I heard about the YPG (Youth Power Group), but my mind was not in that but in parties and friendships.

My mother and friends always tried to tell me that the YPG could help me and I tried to resist, until one day I joined the YPG. I still gave them a hard time and tried to live my own life, but they still did not give up on me.

Today makes it four years I am a part of the YPG and I am happy.

Today I have real peace; I don’t have the desire to die, but to live. I love my mother and I am obedient to her. I decided to change my life and I gave it to the fullest, not to the world, but to God.

I overcame the traumas of the abuse that I faced when I was younger and I am helping others to overcome theirs. – Anel James

N.B: The YPG is a non-profitable organization with the aim of changing young people’s life. The youths from the YPG have a lot to say when it comes to pain. Truth and reality unfolds in our meetings, made by young people to young people. Every week, different topics that will open your eyes to the truth and help you direct your life on the right path.

The destination of your life is in your hands! If you want to know more about the YPG, contact us on:

YPG HELP LINE: 724-8130 / 724-8041
YPG Whatsapp: 730-4040 / 730-2043

Saint Lucia’s biggest youth network, offering a range of activities and practical advice to help young people become successful adults.

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23 comments

  1. I'm startiñg this paper where young people, who go through such things as Anel did could write to me. Your story will be published in my paper and website also i'm looking for young ladies to feature. Weather its wanting to be a model or actress you can contact us.
    Email [email protected] we will fill you in. Whatsapp miss Alexander at 7279137.

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  2. What a life story, and their are many going through this , this group is really making the difference for the yoths, I think thy should get more assistance from the authories here in the country.

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  3. Indeed a great testimony God can make the impossible to become possible .No matter what situation you may be facing he can change it but you have to take a step towards him.The youth power group change lives transforming youths in Saint Lucia because the youths are the future

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  4. Hello everyone, with God everything is possible. Today, I anel am a new person, changed and transformed. I am part of the YPG, if you want to talk come see us. The information is at the bottom of my testimony. Have a bless day .

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  5. The word of God brings life,
    Everything happens from the moment we make the right decision, putting into practice what we hear from God. When the word of God falls on good soil, it is fruitful and fruitful. That is what happened to you Anel , that your life is to live and please God above all else. congratulations for the attitude of faith.

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  6. This is so powerful. However I really got teary when he mentioned sexual abuse. It is one thing to be taken advantage by some body of the opposite sex. Children being sodomised by a grown man is beyond painful.
    We need to expose sexual abuse and we need to teach our children that no one has to touch them.
    And as parents we need to keep eyes on our children.
    God bless you.

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  7. This is so powerful. However I really got teary when he mentioned sexual abuse. It is one thing to be taken advantage by some body of the opposite sex. Children being sodomised by a grown man is beyond painful.
    We need to expose sexual abuse and we need to teach our children that no one has to touch them.
    And as parents we need to keep eyes on our children.
    God bless you.

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  8. This is truly a powerful and eye opening story. I know many youths can relate! I thank God for his help here on earth, The St.Lucia Youth Power Group. Truly he has seen their suffering and made a way.
    Anel May God continue to bless you. Your story blessed my life!

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  9. I never would have thought that Anel was going through situations like that at home. She looked so calm at school, when you think you know someone!

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  10. God bless u Anel he knew your heart.

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  11. This work that YPG is doing here in Saint Lucia and others 180 countries is very good, I wonder if the government helps them to do more for young people like Anel.

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  12. I called them but a lady told me that there is nothing right now taking place except in the summer when there will be something for the youth.I was becamebmore frustrated than I am now

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  13. So young an went through all that .but today she can say she over come.

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  14. Great testimony its very touching i wish that many of our youth and aslo young people are going through the same or worst and they not getting help but now I hope many of them you saw or red this story will now were you got your help from Ypg and I wanna say thanks to lord and the Ypg ministry for doing such a great work in the lives of our young people here in st Lucia keep up god bless you

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  15. You see so young went through so much.But she over come.today she have Peace.maybe many youths are going through the same situation.For sure I believe they can find help

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    • I called them but a lady told me that there is nothing right now taking place except in the summer when there will be something for the youth.I was becamebmore frustrated than I am now

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  16. Really Touching story. Brave of you to share. Truly inspiring. Indeed all things are possible with God

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  17. All our school life I would have never thought Anel was going through so much... My goodness.... Thank god you found a way out... May you continue to bless and touch the life of others with your story...

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  18. Anel James......... May God always be with u and always direct ur paths. Going school with u and being in da same class as u, I never knew u were going through this. I am sorry if I ever made u feel bad or unwanted in any way.

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    • To God be the glory anel

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      • I think I am almost in this situation.call them a lady answered she said there is no programs right now.I will have to wait for the summer when there will be a camp.this got me more frustrated than I am now

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        • Please try to call again and tell them how desperate u are.Please reach out to someone or try to get in contact with the young lady in the story for some moral support.

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