My issue is I am gay and do not know how to tell my girlfriend. We have been together since high school. We are in love. I love her so much out of this world.
For years I suspected I was gay but fought the feelings because of how society view gay people. I have been with many women but I have never been satisfied with the sex. I just don’t get it.
I have been torturing myself too long. I had sex with a man one time and it was the most glorious thing I have ever felt. But I was depressed after that because the Bible is against it because I was brought up in a christian home. I know it is wrong so I never went back to that. God knows it has been tough fighting the urges. I just feel satisfied with the release my female partner gives to me, but that is not enough Willie, I am older now and believe it is time to accept who I am.
My problem is I do not want to hurt my girl. I love her a lot. She is a great human being. She wants to get married and have children. Her parents love me and I love them. She is so beautiful and intelligent but the sex sucks to the S. And it is not for a lack of performance, I am just not into women. I am convinced. The company is great, even greater than most men but I prefer men.
I just don’t want to hurt her and devastate her and I do not want to keep punishing myself.
I see a lot of gays coming out in St. Lucia, some dressed as women. I am not into that nonsense, I am a straight up gentleman. I am the last person on earth you would think is gay but I am very much gay. When I see some guys I get an instant erection. I am not attracted to all.
I am very attracted to men. I also find you Willie attractive. Yes I know who you are. I am not rolling on you but am just saying. My head is spinning as I write this so forgive me.
I am confused and hurt. I do not know why God made me this way. I wish I was normal but I cannot continue to live a double life. I need to exhale and find Mr. Right but I do not want to lose my girlfriend.
So am awaiting your advice Willie and keep looking good. The females are lucky.
Gay and confused.
Dear Gay and Confused:
First of all I am not interested in men but thanks for the compliment.
I believe you should do what is right: tell your girlfriend. It will hurt but the longer you take to disclose this, the more it will hurt.
I am happy you have decided to come out the closet so that you can free this young lady into the arms of a man who loves women.
I will not judge your sexuality as it is your nature and your choice. So just tell her please, as soon as possible. No delays. Get this over with.
And, PLEASE, do not get married to this girl.
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