(NEW YORK POST) — Sophie Turner says her “Game of Thrones” fame negatively affected her while growing up in front of millions of viewers.
“I was so in love with [working on ‘Game of Thrones’] … I couldn’t believe I was going to get paid for it … Everything was incredible, it only started to go downhill I think when I started to hit puberty and really puberty at like 17 and my metabolism was slowing down massively and I was gaining weight,” Turner told Dr. Phil on his podcast, adding, “and there was the social media scrutiny and everything and that was when it kind of hit me.”
Turner, 23, said she’s suffered from depression for “about five or six years.”
“The biggest challenge for me is just getting out of bed and getting out of the house, and learning to love yourself is the biggest challenge I think,” she shared.
When her friends were all going off to college, Turner remained at home to continue working on the hit HBO series. The combination of living at home with her parents, her friends going to school and the rise of social media, however, made her feel “alone.”
“I had no motivation to do anything or go out,” Turner explained. “Even with my best friends … I would cry and cry and cry.”
Eventually, Turner’s depression became too much and she started contemplating ending it all.
“It’s weird. I say I wasn’t very depressed when I was younger, but I used to think about suicide a lot when I was younger. I don’t know why though,” Turner explained. “Maybe it’s just a weird fascination I used to have, but yeah, I used to think about it. I don’t think I ever would have gone through with it. I don’t know.”
Turner said she’s doing “much better” after undergoing therapy and medication.
“I love myself now or more than I used to now,” she revealed. “I don’t think I love myself at all, but I’m now with someone [fiancé Joe Jonas] who makes me realize I do have some redeeming qualities I suppose.”